Guilty Sin
Part One : That Night..
Sometimes, there are things you can't see. Those "something's" can connect to other people. Sometimes, those "something's" can lead us to despair. Sometimes, Those "something's" can bring pain to us. But, in this world where we met each other I'm sure that those "something's" will bring us happiness.
My name Tsumi Yuzai, half japanese half european. My Dad is a bastard from England who came to marry my Mom and then dispose her after make her pregnant. My Mom want to raise me. My Grandma and Grandpa is not a agree with my Mom decision and told my her to do an abortion. So, my Mom run away from home and raise me by herself. That's all written in my Mom last diary.
My Mom died on today, along with my 13th birthday. My Mom died because of the car incident when I attending the 3rd Semester of my junior High School. It's a huge shock for me. That day I can't even express my feeling. I don't have friends in school. My grades are average. My mother's died and I can't pay my school fees. I lost my house because of it and I can only live in the empty building near the supermarket. So I'm alone now.
I can't feel anything that day, I can't feel sad nor despair. I feels like very weak that time. I want to cry but I think because of my pride that I can't shed any tears. I think this is what God desire to look at the filthy me. To enjoy a very disgusting life. I think that God want me to see ridiculous life. That day I look at the dark sky because of the rain. I look at that dark sky until I feel like passed out. I didn't eat from yesterday and I really exhausted. Maybe I will die now because of the hunger. Isn't it great? to die now. So I will leave this disgusting life. I don't need anything now. For the rest of my life the one who can bring me at least smile is my Mom. How am I supposed to live without her. Then something fall from my eyes. Something wet fall down to my cheeks.
"Hehh.. I don't know why I cry?" I talked to myself. "Is it because my Mom died? Or is it because I alone now?" I thinking for the reason. Then I hear a sound in my head "Hmm.. It's really weird. Ehh.. why can't I stop crying". I thinking for awhile "Ohh.. Maybe because I don't want to die? It's really weird isn't it?". I can't stop the tears now. "I never felt happiness in my life, but when my time comes to die why do I even want to live?". I feel funny my head feel dizzy then I fall to the ground. I can't feel my body anymore. "So am I going to die? Life is very funny". And then when I want to close my eyes in an instant I saw someone right in front of me. A white-haired girl, with blue eyes, dressed all in white like an angel, and her face looks sad. She cried in front of me.
"CRYING?".
"Why Are You Crying."
"Do You Feel Sorry For Me?"
"DON'T CRY..."
Why is she crying? I do not care anymore I was close to death, and all was dark. Then I heard a voice telling me "Don"t Die"
